By this time tomorrow I will be back in my room for the last time.
I'm not ready to go. I've been trying to stay positive for such a long time that I haven't really let reality hit me yet.
I'm going home.
I don't want to.
I don't want to go back to a city where the only thing good there is my family. I don't want to be in a state where every day they're growing more and more hateful towards gays.
I want to feel safe.
And home just isn't safe anymore.
So finals are over. The semester's over. And my time here at American University is over. Possibly. Here's what's going on.
As I've mentioned in a post a while back, our budget is tight and my education is expensive. But here's the rest of the story:
When I found out that I was going to attend school at American University I was motivated and ready to learn and experience American University. However I also knew that I would need financial aid so that I could further my education at American University. Because I found out that I would be attending American University around a month before school started, all of the financial aid funds had already been given out for the fall semester. With my sister and mother both attending college this semester, our budget was already limited. Then we received news that my father was laid of from his job at PepsiCo, which made things even harder.
I was told to continue with my classes and to fill out scholarship applications online and work hard. I have done this every single day that I’ve been here at American University. For the first time in my academic life, I feel as though I'm in a place where I actually belong. I've learned more here in one semester than I did in the previous three years at my old school. I've been pushed passed my comfort zone into doing new and at sometimes frightening things in class and I've found that I can do so much more than I originally thought.
My first two weeks here in Washington, DC I got a chance to be apart of two organizations that are in direct correlation to what I want to do with my future. I got a Communications Internship with the NGLCC and I also received a position as a Youth Council Advisor for The Trevor Project.
I never would have been able to reach these goals and have these opportunity if I weren't here in DC.
Continuing my education is the most important thing to me.
So on the right side of my column is a donation button for Paypal. I understand if you don't have the funds to help me. All I ask is that you at least tell other people about me so they can possibly in any way they can. Whether that's by finding scholarships that I could enter, finding a grant I can apply for, or by any other means.
Anything will be great.
Thanks to all of you who follow me, know me, or are friends or family.
I couldn't have made it this far without you.
Jordan
